The first post of 2017, and I'm sitting here, still in the early morning clothes of "get up and walk the dog." I should have been showered, cleaned the pool, finished the unfinished paper mosaics I've been working on, cleaned the bathroom and washed the dogs by now. Literally. I woke up at 5 a.m., and it's now a balmy 11:00 a.m. and nothing is done.
Not a healthy start for this busy girl.
I'm not going to go into the virtues of setting goals for the year or any of that rot. I'm a "just-do-it" kind of creature, so if I want to make changes, I generally just do them.
Instead, I'm going to reach out to everyone to be honest with themselves. Now, I get on Facebook, and I read all through the recent posts of all my FB friends (and my real ones) and I see so many posts that belie the true behind-the-scenes lives they lead. They say one thing, and what they really feel is another.
If I had one wish, it would be that everyone could just be happy. Not rich, not successful, not madly in love with love, but happy. I have my days of depression, some that sink down into my work, so much so that I have to step away from my art table and run from the shadows until it's all over so that I can create happy stuff again. I know I'm not alone in this.
It's okay to have bad days, and it's okay to admit to that. It's okay to have relationships snags and to acknowledge those, and it's okay to be yourself, with no pretense. Its okay to talk to someone, or in my case, since there really is never anyone here to talk to, talk to people through posts. The ones that know you well enough will respond, and those are the ones you care about anyway.
For instance, New Year's Eve. My choice to stay in, because I can't drink that much, don't have the desire to be on the roads, and, although I do wish I had a romantic partner, I don't. My hubby is not the emotional sort, and is more a business-as-usual sort of worker bee. So, we don't raise a glass at midnight and watch the ball drop. We sleep. We have both had traumatic News Years Eves, so its best if we just deal with another day, rather than the start of another year.
Many of my friends "stayed in," and that is perfectly okay. You don't have to justify staying in. In fact, I'm proud that you have had the guts, in this world of party-party-party, to admit to sleeping in your jammies by 9 p.m. You don't have to be the booze-swilling, party animals just because it's New Years Eve. You made a choice.
And if you are not happy in your marriage, not happy in your relationship, not happy with your job, not happy in general, well, that is perfectly okay, too. You don't have to post how wonderful life is because so-and-so is there for you. That's personal, and you can deal with your life how you see fit.
If it ain't working, it ain't working. Don't pretend to be one thing on Facebook, and one thing in real life.
Just be real.
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